Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Absent Mind: A Study of An Adult with ADHD

This has been a busy week for me.

Sunday: Lost my brand-effing-new iPhone (PS I LOVE IT!). Took me two hours to find it. Thought it was in my BF’s car, but because my mind was racing and I didn’t find it right off, I just left. Guess where it was two hours later (After I went back to my apartment to search, and after I enlisted the help of other people, and after I searched several levels of parking garages)? In my BF’s freakin’ car. [Simmer] What the hell!?!

Monday: Lost my keys.

Tuesday: Ran out of gas (Thank you again BF for rescuing me in the snow and sleet. Too bad it was so late at night. I would have bought you something from Mrs. Baxter’s Pastry Shop, 'cause that's precisely where I ran out).

Wednesday: Found out my rent check for January hasn’t cleared, and I’m wondering if I sent it at all. Oh, and I can’t find the receipt I got when my bank issued the cashier’s check. It’s going to be a long time in the bank tomorrow, because I also have to get next month’s rent in the mail.

Okay. Are we seeing a pattern here?

Can I even tell you how many times I’ve lost my keys, wallet, cassette player/CD Player/ipod, phone, and Leatherman/Gerber in the last two decades?

My brain is an effing nightmare. And you know what’s worse? I’m totally self aware, and I still can’t seem to help myself. It bothers me exceedingly.

“So what are the general symptoms of people with ADHD?” you might be wondering.

Here’s me.

Predominantly inattentive type symptoms may include:
 Be easily distracted, miss details, forget things, and frequently switch from one activity to another
 Have difficulty maintaining focus on one task
 Become bored with a task after only a few minutes, unless doing something enjoyable
 Have difficulty focusing attention on organizing and completing a task or learning something new or trouble completing or turning in homework assignments, often losing things (e.g., pencils, toys, assignments) needed to complete tasks or activities
 Not seem to listen when spoken to
 Daydream, become easily confused, and move slowly
 Have difficulty processing information as quickly and accurately as others
 Struggle to follow instructions.

I’m not saying I’m not appreciative of the mind I do have. It is very good with information I deem pertinent: literature, film, critical essays & music. I just wish, for once, I wasn’t my own worst enemy when it came to keeping track of things.

PS Girlyman, my favorite band, is putting out a new album in a month. I'm SO happy. It's like an early birthday or late Christmas.

5 comments:

Sarah said...

Sorry for the nightmare that plays out over and over again!
You're a trooper and just remember to be kind to the mind of my little sister!
I love you Bec!

Sara Lyn said...

I'm right there with you. Oh, SO with you. The worst part, as you said, is being self aware and still not seem to be able to help it. But they make for great stories! Like the time I called my VTee to make sure we were still on for our appointment an hour from them. Then I missed the appointment (that was AN HOUR LATER) and didn't realize it until the next day. Heh, heh. An unfortunately frequent happening... :)

Kira said...

"Screwtape letters" is at Kingsbury Hall. That could be enjoyable, no?

Becky said...

Sarah-Thanks for always leaving words of encouragement. Some days it takes all I've got just to keep up with the losers.

Sara Lyn-I'm so grateful for your words of empathy. I've totally done the same thing. It's the worst when I get a phone call about it later, and the person's like: "Where was you at?"

Kira-I'm so sad. Sarah and I looked up the dates for the play, and the last show is this weekend. I'm in Arizona, sadly. It did sound like a very good idea, especially since I just barely finished the book. Poo!

Unknown said...

My favorite part of this was the completely random ending. No introduction or conjunction. Just proof of what you were saying: it was a pure ADHD tangent to your favorite band! But, amazingly, you can be a little distractable and still one of the most brilliant folk I know. I always figure you're thinking about something spectacular when you lose your keys for the 2nd time during our outings.